BOMBING THE GLASS CEILING
"The Healing Hands that Saved My Spirit and Set Me Free" - written by Holly Brantley.
The glass ceiling of my life: I felt like I had my face pressed against it pounding with both hands in a fight to break through. I wanted to get to the next level of self love and compassion - happiness and joy. But how could that happen if I could not shatter this barrier? I could not let go and fully be present or engaged in the experiences of my life. I always felt I was hiding parts of myself and my gifts. I could never fully express myself even when I felt passionately about a subject or experience. There was something inside me that told me to remain just a little bit guarded and afraid when I wanted to let my soul fly.
Self-preservation was my game - I was a master - on alert at all times. I lived, loved, and even slept in the force field I created. I held a pressure inside my chest like someone pushing me back at my every moment. I had built this wall over the years as I slowly held on to negative emotions so tightly it started to become my identity.
Where was the beautiful flower I had been - the young girl with dreams and confidence? I had bloomed once before - I had been successful, confident, and fiercely happy. But one petal at a time I wilted and couldn’t find what I needed to breathe and glow again.
When I met Christy I would find that blossom still alive.
It seems the Universe brought Christy to me out of the longings of my heart. Her gifts of spiritual healing ae something I never consciously sought. I barely knew these ways to renew your energy and consciousness existed.
I met her by chance - I believe the Universe saw to that --I'm so glad it did.
Through learning and exploring - and experiencing - different forms of healing she tore through layers of dust from my past and masks of worries for the future to reveal an inner woman of power. I achieved a state of intense presence but also peace and learned to call upon that 'center' when vulnerable times come as they always will.
With her healing power I found more than a soldier inside me, I found a warrior. I shifted my focus to acceptance and forward movement as well as visualization to manifest the present and future I desire. My bravery revealed itself in order to take risks and set myself free in situations where I would have kept up a shield.
Taking those chances turned out to be fruitful and I continue to be flooded with opportunities and chance situations that reflect the desires of my heart. All this, as I found new beauty in what is.
What's more, as my energy level rose and positive light shined, I saw people and situations that no longer served me fall away without any action on my part. This made room for all the new and wonderful things that were happening. This continues to happen daily as I write this ....
This power, blessing, magic: It all gave me my strength again! I've broken and soared beyond that glass ceiling and I believe with all my heart and soul there is no limit. The greatest gift - on any day is the knowledge that I have my power and peace back - back or perhaps uncovered again. I now also have my own tools and access to skills of a great healer to guide me as life remains ever changing and evolving in beautiful ways. Beautiful ways - mysterious ways - a breathtaking tapestry I can face without fear and simply a spirit of Love.
Thank you Christy, thank you for helping me evolve to a place of higher and better self - And this is only the beginning. Thank you for helping me find myself in a way that without you would have been impossible.
~ Holly Brantley